I've realized that I have this complex. I can't ever be told what to do or I flip out! At work, it's a different story. But, family members, friends, etc. drives me NUTS! I don't know why? But it started when I was a teenager. I thought it would end by the time I moved out of my parents house but nope, still makes me crazy!

Well I went to my follow up at The Health Spot and I thought that Pam was going to start singing! She looked at my levels and was so pleased and so was I! My hormone levels were at a normal level, my anxiety levels, everything! I was so excited. I haven't felt this good in a loong time! I have more energy and I'm not in pain anymore. This stuff works, I am an example right here! I feel like the old me. It makes me soo happy! I wanted to show you the difference between my first and second visit! It's crazy! Here are some pictures.






Red and yellow (as you can guess) are bad. My levels in the Lymph/drainage went up a little bit but I was fighting off a cold at the time. But it's pretty awesome! :) She said she's hoping I'll get pregnant this month or next. That probably wasn't the best thing to say to someone like me because it got my hopes up a little bit. 

I'll be finding out if I'm pregnant or not in a little over a week so please lots of prayers and baby dust because I don't think I can handle getting disappointed for a 6th time. It's becoming too hard. I'm trying not to stress out about it but it's difficult because I want it more than anything. It's also really hard with all of the outside forces constantly asking me if I'm pregnant or asking me when we're going to get pregnant. It kills me, I can't handle the pressure anymore. It sucks. So, again, lots of prayers and baby dust! 

I appreciate all of you! You're the best and I know your praying for me because I improve everyday. Thank you for the love and support! You're the best! :) 



Uh, where's my shampoo?

So, I get home from a long day at work and I hop into the shower and I'm getting ready to wash my hair when I look at the windowsill and I don't see my shampoo or conditioner. I jump out of the shower and go running around the house soaking wet and freezing cold to see where my shampoo could be! (We had to stay at Dal's parents Monday night to house sit so I thought I packed it) I can't find it anywhere! Well I'm getting really cold so I jumped back into the shower and low and behold there is my shampoo and conditioner on the shelf that hangs around the shower head. Seriously?! So, here's a message to my sweetheart Dallas, don't move my stuff or I won't be able to find it! haha. It gets better, I hear my dog Koda start whining so I go to peek out through the shower curtain to see if Dallas was home and there is his face!! Right there! I let out this pitiful little squeak/ scream. Dallas cracked up. It was pretty funny haha.

I just finished the Hunger Games series! All I have to say is THERE SHOULD BE MORE BOOKS! I'm very sad that I'm already done! They were so good, I literally read them in like 3 days! haha. I went and bought the 3rd one because I couldn't find anyone to borrow it from, that's how good they were. TEAM PEETA ALL THE WAY! He's just tender, love him. But, if you haven't read the books then you're stupid. No, just kidding....but seriously....read the books. You're missin out!

 I just heard about the Tornadoes in Texas. I called my parents and I was like so just making sure you're still alive..sorry I'm a day late. The tornadoes didn't hit their area thank heavens. But I freaked out when I saw the pictures this morning because seriously one of the pictures looked like it came from my parents backyard.

Well guys, The Health Spot truly works miracles. I am feeling soo much better. I have been in such a great mood lately and I feel like my stress and anxiety levels have gone down a TON. And, my back has been better and my pain with my endometriosis has improved as well! I'm supposed to be drinking this shake though and I can't drink it. It literally made me throw up. It's so thick and gritty and has this nasty after taste. I can't do it! Any suggestions? I put strawberries, bananas, blueberries, and rice milk in it. I'm not sure what else to do. I have my follow up appt tomorrow and I'm pretty sure Pam is not going to be too pleased with me haha.

 I've been going through a roller coaster of emotions with the whole situation of trying to get pregnant. I started off really sad and then really angry. I have been praying and searching and reaching out to you for comfort. I know you guys have been praying for me because the other day I felt this overwhelming peace that everything is going to be okay. The Lord has never left my side and just because he's not giving me what I want now doesn't mean he never will. He's not saying no, it's more like, not right now. Like I said in my last post, it's all on His time. I feel like I can be more patient. My dad texted me the other day about my going to The Health Spot. He said, "You need to see this as a healing process and stop worrying about getting pregnant until your menstrual cycles feel better. This will be a sign some healing has taken place." So true! I need my body to be healthy and it takes time! I want my baby to grow in a healthy body! Hopefully I will look back on this time one day and think, "Wow, what a waste of time and energy to worry about that stuff when there was really nothing to worry or stress myself out over." It's not my plan....It's Heavenly Father's...If you go to Him and say, "Ok, so here's my plan..." You know he's just gonna laugh. But, again thank you for the prayers and support. I really appreciate it.

Here's some quotes that have helped me through!












Love you all!:)