Hi, My name is Breanna and I text in my sleep.

Does anyone else have this problem?! I looked it up because I thought it was so weird but it's actually a real thing! People text in their sleep! I definitely do it! Just last night I said something completely off the wall to one of my friends and had a full on conversation with another. I guess it doesn't take a lot of brain power to text but I mean come on! It's embarrassing because then my friend will call me or come over and be like oh remember what I told you last night? Uhm, no-what are you talking about? Then I pick up my phone and I'm like WHAT?! I do not remember this at all! It's freaking weird! It cracks me up too. I remember one time in high school one of my really good guy friends called me at like 2 am (why so late? No, idea. Couldn't tell you how the conversation went to save my life) and I talked to him for like an hour. He came up to me at school the next day and was like thanks for talking to me last night I needed it! You were cracking me up! Uh, you're welcome?.........What are you talking about? He was like seriously? I told him I didn't remember a thing. WEIRD! Obviously I have a serious problem. I'm addicted to technology. I think I need a break from it because who knows what I'll say! I may share my deepest darkest secret with someone! Scary! haha.

Baby news you ask? None to report as of now. I mean I had some weird spotting (ew) on Sunday and I don't know what in the heck that was but, I guess we'll find out in a week. But, you know what? I can deal with whatever the outcome is. It's still hard but I'm done stressing myself out over it. My life kind of did a 180 this month. Things were going really well and now it's not going so well. I'm so stressed my temples feel like they're going to explode and my eye is twitching. Not fun. I look up sometimes and say, "Ok, what's the plan here? Cause I'm lost!" I got my answer the other day. "Disappointments are just God's way of saying, 'I've got something better', so be patient, have faith and live your life." Pinterest, you always know what to say. So smart. I always think of that now. Something will get thrown at me and I just want to scream and I literally have a couple of times and then that quote comes into my mind and I just breathe and move on and live my life.

I am grateful that I have a husband to lean on. He's my best friend, my rock, my everything and I'm so blessed. Our marriage is not perfect. Absolutely not. We work hard every day and just like with every marriage there are times when you just want to throw your hands up in the air. I married this man for eternity and I plan on keeping it that way. We made very serious and special covenants in the temple and I could not have pictured anyone else sitting across the alter from me than my sweetheart Dallas. I love him more than anything. He makes me better and hopefully I do that for him. We have so much fun together too. We joke around and play around. We have a blast. People who hang out with us said they just love watching us interact with each other and it makes me feel good to hear that. I'm glad that people can see that we're happy and in love. We are! We have gone through so many trials and have come out stronger than ever. I honestly believe that certain people could not have survived some of the things that we've been through. But we did and that makes me feel comforted. I married my soul mate. He is the love of my life. My true love. I remember growing up and crying over boys and dating and breaking up and thinking I will never be able to recover. So dramatic. My mother always told me, "You're going to look back on this and think wow, what a waste of time and tears." I don't regret those relationships. They helped mold me and make me a better person for my husband. But, it's true. If I would've known what was coming I wouldn't have worried so much and let my heart break. So, to the young girls out there that think that relationships in high school are important and that boys are everything now and that when they break your heart it's the end of the world. It's not. It gets better and you will find your prince.

Well, I of course have some inspirational quotes that I've come across and they've made my day so hopefully they can make yours too!

Soo....

I went to the Health Spot today to get the results for my progesterone and got some pretty depressing news. I'm not even ovulating. No wonder I haven't gotten pregnant. It's a common cause of infertility. INFERTILITY! UGGHHHH!!!!!!

Pam is going to try to help me start ovulating again. She's put me on medication and supplements to get my progesterone up. I'm hardly producing any of it.

HORMONES SUCK!

The fact that I was late on my period was a true blessing though. I know that's weird to think, but if I hadn't have been late I wouldn't have figured this out for a long time.

A few years ago I got a similar test saying I wasn't producing enough progesterone then. They put me on progesterone cream but I stopped taking it cause it was making me gain weight and because I didn't think it was a big deal. NO ONE TOLD ME THAT IT MEANT I WASN'T OVULATING!

Please, PLEASE send your prayers. I really need to start ovulating. I need to get pregnant. We need to have a baby.

I appreciate and love all of you.

My Body's Crazy!!!

This last week has been insane. It's been extremely frustrating and exhausting and I'm glad I got things figured out today. Let's start from the beginning. Normally about a week before Aunt Flow is supposed to arrive I start cramping but there was nothing. I thought that was odd, either I'm pregnant or the supplements are doing their job! My period was due May 1st. Well May 1st came and went and nothing. I took a pregnancy test and it was, no surprise, negative. I was a little bummed but I also thought maybe it was a false negative. So, I waited for a couple of days and my period still didn't come so I took another test and again negative. 2 more days another test another negative. I was getting really irritated! I kept thinking well if I'm not pregnant than where the heck is my period?! I called the Health Spot and Pam ordered me an HCG blood test and a progesterone test. I went in on Sunday ( I know it was the Sabbath, but I was 6 days late and going insane!) and got the blood test and asked when I could get the results and they told me to call in an hour. I was SO nervous. I called exactly at an hour and they told me my HCG quantitive was 1. I was like. "Ok? Does that mean I'm pregnant or not?" They told me that they don't test negative or positive, just the levels and that my doctor would tell me. I called Pam and told her what they said and she said "Oh, well I'll get your progesterone levels tomorrow and call you." WHAT?! Why isn't anyone telling me what that stupid test means?!  I had to freakin google it and found that if it's under 5 than it's negative. Wonderful, just wonderful. And then of course day 7, today, my period comes. UGH!!! I was so irritated! Last night I cried forever and then I was livid and then I cried some more. I told someone yesterday that I have been trying for 6 months and they made me feel horrible. Their response was, "Holy crap! That's a long time?" Is it though? Yes, it feels like FOREVER from my perspective but I mean come on there are people who didn't have kids til they tried for like 2 years or more. What I don't get is why am I not getting the magic baby dust that seems to be floating around Utah? Impregnating women at the drop of the hat? I go to church! I pay my tithing! I read my scriptures! I do my best to be a good wife to my husband! I work hard! I eat healthy! COME ON MOTHER NATURE! Be on MY side for once! You've already tortured me with these hellish periods that I've dealt with since I was 14!! Don't let me have suffered that long for no reason!! I'm so tired of this roller coaster. I don't want this to control my life.

And then I realized, control. I think that's the problem. This is beyond my control! This requires patience! Maybe, just maybe that's what the problem is! I am the most impatient person in the world. I also have to be in control of just about everything! And because I have to wait and I don't have control over getting pregnant it's making me crazy! Maybe that's what I need to learn. To let go and let God and to be patient. 

So, I've decided that I'm not going to focus on this anymore. I'm going to focus on the blessings. I have this time to be with my husband and for us to grow together. We have this time for him to focus on school and me to focus on work.  There is a very special spirit waiting to come down and we need to be the best parents we can be for him/her. I have this time to focus on getting better with my endometriosis and to getting my body healthy and in shape so that I can be strong enough to carry and care for our baby. We have this time to work on our finances, finish paying off our debts, pay for my husbands school, and save up our money so that we can give our baby whatever he/she needs to be happy and healthy. 

Patience. Faith. Letting Go. Seeing the positive. That's what I need to learn. 

I want to have a baby more than anything. I really do. But it's not on my time. It's on the Lord's. 

Thank you for the continued prayers and for your support. I love you all. You're amazing. 

This will happen for Dallas and I. I know it. I had this feeling last night that I really have nothing to worry about and I feel that, that peace came from your prayers and from my Husbands faith. Mine's not strong enough but his is and I'm so blessed to have him. He helps me improve myself every day. 

Here are some great quotes on Faith. They have helped me a lot so I thought I'd share! :)

I've realized that I have this complex. I can't ever be told what to do or I flip out! At work, it's a different story. But, family members, friends, etc. drives me NUTS! I don't know why? But it started when I was a teenager. I thought it would end by the time I moved out of my parents house but nope, still makes me crazy!

Well I went to my follow up at The Health Spot and I thought that Pam was going to start singing! She looked at my levels and was so pleased and so was I! My hormone levels were at a normal level, my anxiety levels, everything! I was so excited. I haven't felt this good in a loong time! I have more energy and I'm not in pain anymore. This stuff works, I am an example right here! I feel like the old me. It makes me soo happy! I wanted to show you the difference between my first and second visit! It's crazy! Here are some pictures.

Red and yellow (as you can guess) are bad. My levels in the Lymph/drainage went up a little bit but I was fighting off a cold at the time. But it's pretty awesome! :) She said she's hoping I'll get pregnant this month or next. That probably wasn't the best thing to say to someone like me because it got my hopes up a little bit. 

I'll be finding out if I'm pregnant or not in a little over a week so please lots of prayers and baby dust because I don't think I can handle getting disappointed for a 6th time. It's becoming too hard. I'm trying not to stress out about it but it's difficult because I want it more than anything. It's also really hard with all of the outside forces constantly asking me if I'm pregnant or asking me when we're going to get pregnant. It kills me, I can't handle the pressure anymore. It sucks. So, again, lots of prayers and baby dust! 

I appreciate all of you! You're the best and I know your praying for me because I improve everyday. Thank you for the love and support! You're the best! :) 

Uh, where's my shampoo?

So, I get home from a long day at work and I hop into the shower and I'm getting ready to wash my hair when I look at the windowsill and I don't see my shampoo or conditioner. I jump out of the shower and go running around the house soaking wet and freezing cold to see where my shampoo could be! (We had to stay at Dal's parents Monday night to house sit so I thought I packed it) I can't find it anywhere! Well I'm getting really cold so I jumped back into the shower and low and behold there is my shampoo and conditioner on the shelf that hangs around the shower head. Seriously?! So, here's a message to my sweetheart Dallas, don't move my stuff or I won't be able to find it! haha. It gets better, I hear my dog Koda start whining so I go to peek out through the shower curtain to see if Dallas was home and there is his face!! Right there! I let out this pitiful little squeak/ scream. Dallas cracked up. It was pretty funny haha.

I just finished the Hunger Games series! All I have to say is THERE SHOULD BE MORE BOOKS! I'm very sad that I'm already done! They were so good, I literally read them in like 3 days! haha. I went and bought the 3rd one because I couldn't find anyone to borrow it from, that's how good they were. TEAM PEETA ALL THE WAY! He's just tender, love him. But, if you haven't read the books then you're stupid. No, just kidding....but seriously....read the books. You're missin out!

 I just heard about the Tornadoes in Texas. I called my parents and I was like so just making sure you're still alive..sorry I'm a day late. The tornadoes didn't hit their area thank heavens. But I freaked out when I saw the pictures this morning because seriously one of the pictures looked like it came from my parents backyard.

Well guys, The Health Spot truly works miracles. I am feeling soo much better. I have been in such a great mood lately and I feel like my stress and anxiety levels have gone down a TON. And, my back has been better and my pain with my endometriosis has improved as well! I'm supposed to be drinking this shake though and I can't drink it. It literally made me throw up. It's so thick and gritty and has this nasty after taste. I can't do it! Any suggestions? I put strawberries, bananas, blueberries, and rice milk in it. I'm not sure what else to do. I have my follow up appt tomorrow and I'm pretty sure Pam is not going to be too pleased with me haha.

 I've been going through a roller coaster of emotions with the whole situation of trying to get pregnant. I started off really sad and then really angry. I have been praying and searching and reaching out to you for comfort. I know you guys have been praying for me because the other day I felt this overwhelming peace that everything is going to be okay. The Lord has never left my side and just because he's not giving me what I want now doesn't mean he never will. He's not saying no, it's more like, not right now. Like I said in my last post, it's all on His time. I feel like I can be more patient. My dad texted me the other day about my going to The Health Spot. He said, "You need to see this as a healing process and stop worrying about getting pregnant until your menstrual cycles feel better. This will be a sign some healing has taken place." So true! I need my body to be healthy and it takes time! I want my baby to grow in a healthy body! Hopefully I will look back on this time one day and think, "Wow, what a waste of time and energy to worry about that stuff when there was really nothing to worry or stress myself out over." It's not my plan....It's Heavenly Father's...If you go to Him and say, "Ok, so here's my plan..." You know he's just gonna laugh. But, again thank you for the prayers and support. I really appreciate it.

Here's some quotes that have helped me through!

Love you all!:)

It's all on the Lords Time

Life has been so crazy lately! I swear I never feel like I have time to myself anymore. I work 40 hours a week and I have a calling as the Secretary in the Primary Presidency in Church that I'm always trying to catch up on and of course my most important calling, I'm a wife to an amazing man! As blessed as I am to be able to have a full time job and be married and be a member to a wonderful church, it's gets exhausting!Phew! I just need to lay down and breath! haha.

I try not to talk about things that are too personal online. But it's hard, especially when you just want support. (not, rude and unwanted opinions). Dallas and I are wanting to have a mini Reynolds! We have been since November but unfortunately, no luck so far. Some people would say, " Oh come on, it hasn't been that long." True, to other people maybe not. But to us it seems like forever and it gets discouraging. That's one of the reasons I've been going to that lady at The Health Spot. (see post below) And, we get more impatient when more and more people are getting pregnant. Everyone keeps asking us, "When are you guys going to start having a family?" I know they're not trying to be insensitive or hurt my feelings but I just wanna say, Well we're doing as much as we can! haha. Anyways, we could use some prayers. I really feel like my true calling in this life is to be a wife and mother. I need to remember that it's all on the Lords time and that when he's ready to send that little spirit down to us he will. I'm trying to put all of my faith and trust in Him but, I'm only human and one of my huge flaws is that I'm extremely impatient. But, like I said...I'M TRYING! haha. But I think this quote says it all. 

I've been reading the Hunger Games! Holy crap! LOVE THESE BOOKS! I'm getting started on the last one tonight. I can't believe it took me this long to read them. I kept starting to read them but I was just kind of like eh, but everyone kept telling me READ IT! So, finally I was like, ok just read it! And, I couldn't put it down! I'm glad I have another series to obsess about now that I've read all of the Harry Potter Books and Twilight books 500 times and the Harry Potter movies are over and now the Twilight movies are almost over too...even though the Twilight movies SUCK.....I still go see them because I like the books! Dallas and I saw Hunger Games and loved it! Dallas never read the books so he was freaking out the whole time. He leaned over and was like "Can we pause this for a second? I need to breath!" haha. It was cute! 

Well, I got to finish cleaning the house and then Hubby will be home! :). Today's my day off and I have a few more hours to enjoy it! :). Love you everyone! 

Wow.

It's been a while since I've posted on here. I've been so busy with work that I just come home and crash! So, Let's see if I can catch everyone up on a few things!

First of all, Dallas and I celebrated our 2 year anniversary on the 5th of this month! Holy cow! I can't believe it's been two years! Time flies! I still remember our first date. We went dirt biking that morning and then to the festival of colors and the whole time there was just this comfort between us. I felt like I'd known him forever, as if he had been my best friend for years. We held hands and kissed and we didn't leave each others side the whole day! And that was the beginning of our whirl wind romance! We fell in love very quickly and I love him even more now. I didn't even think that was possible but it is! One our anniversary I woke up that morning and Dallas led me into the kitchen and on the table was a container of Hot Chocolate (yes!) and a purple box. In the purple box was a mug that said "We did then, We do now." And the handle made a heart. There's a picture down below! I loved it! Then that night we went to Madeline's for dinner. It's a super nice steakhouse, like Outback but fancier haha. Dallas gave me this gorgeous tennis bracelet! And it's real! I was so surprised and I wear it everyday. And I got Dallas a really nice Nixon Rotolog Dark Wood. I know, wife of the year ;). Then we decided to go bowling! I was horrible of course. I got so many gutter balls it was sad haha. The bowling alley has an arcade area so we just decided to kill some time over there and we won over a thousand tickets. We just all of these tiny ridiculous toys haha. We went home after and Dallas turned on our song that we danced to at our wedding, "Then" by Brad Paisley, and danced with me. :). It was really sweet. Here's some pictures of mine and Dallas's presents

Dal's brother Cody got married on the 15th of this month to his new wife Kim. We are really happy for them! I'm excited that I finally get a sister! Haha. They were sealed in the Salt Lake City Temple and the sealing was beautiful. The spirit was very strong, we know they're meant to be together. Congrats to Cody and Kim! Best wishes for a wonderful Eternity!

So, I thought I'd share something things going on with me right now. I have a health disorder called endometriosis. If you're not sure what that is here's a link: Endometriosis.. It's not very pleasant. One of the side affects is infertility. Dallas and I are not worried about it though because my mom has it and I have many family members who have it and they all have children. But it causes me a lot of unbearable pain. It causes me to miss work, church, activities, etc. I've dealt with it since I was 15 and it just gets progressively worse. I've gone to the emergency room for it before because the pain was so awful I thought I had something else seriously wrong with me. Well, I started going to this woman at this place called The Health Spot. It's all natural. She specializes in things like endometriosis, auto immune disorders, anxiety, depression and much more. Well I suffer from 3 out of 4 of those and ever since I've been going to her I've started feeling soo much better! My mood swings have improved, my anxiety and depression. Everything. I'm starting to feel better physically too! I think it's going to take a little bit to feel 100% better with the pain. But it's lessening. She also helps with people who are struggling to get pregnant so that's a bonus for us! It's amazing and I love it!

Anyway, there are so many more things that I want to post but I'm running out of time! I have to go to work in a couple of hours and then Dallas and I get to see a private screening of The Hunger Games!! So excited! I just finished the book last night! So I'm more excited now! haha! 

I promise to get better about posting! Love you all! :)